She was a real asshole. She came in all smug and destroyed my life, Kali style. When I protested, when I sobbed, when I looked up at the heavens and begged “Please, please just let me keep this one thing…” she rolled her eyes as if to say, “I’m giving you what you asked for.”
Which she was.
And I am grateful.
Even though I whined the entire time…
To be honest, I’ve been thinking about walking away from this blog, my tarot business and the rest of my online “life.” I feel the need to step back, meditate and work on creative projects I’ve been putting off. I love reading tarot cards. I like blogging. I just don’t have any desire to pretend like I’m an expert or that I have all the answers. I feel weird. I am uncertain. I’m in the mud with everyone else. Authenticity is important. I have zero interest in pretending to have my shit together.
I’m not sure what my plans are. I was hoping to have things figured out by now but alas, the answers allude me. You may soon see changes in this neck of the woods…
Anyone else experiencing these feelings? Want to escape with me and live in the forest? Want to run screaming into the nearest ocean? Want to hop in a van and disappear down the highway? Because I definitely do.